And now, apparently my youngest sister has allowed herself to be brainwashed by Birthright- she went in February- and HAS to move to Israel. Now. This summer. I would like to suggest that if she is bored and lonely, perhaps she could try living on a kibbutz for six months! Or volunteering! Or joining MSF! Or going to fucking India. Or anything but making an expensive, lengthy commitment at someone else's expense based on some romanticized notion that it's all a grand adventure. I suspect she will say that she's willing to do nothing at her own expense, which leads me to believe that it's only worth it if it's free. You can imagine how much respect I have for these shenanigans. And I really, truly thought she was smarter than that. And.... and so many other things.
What with one thing and another I think I'm headed for a fine case of FUCKING DEPRESSED.
Ugh. FUCKING DEPRESSED sucks. It's part of what made me get that IUD pretty damn fast after Kidlet was born.
ReplyDelete(As an aside: I almost murdered the person who may or may not have been my husband who said "Aren't the baby blues supposed to be gone by now?"
But it's not the baby blues! It's FUCKING DEPRESSED. It sucks more and lingers longer.
DeleteP.S. check your IUD eeeeeevery month, don't be like me and get lazy after 10 months. Also, totally why I didn't want to do this all again. Lack of sleep plus trapped with nursing baby equals FUCKING DEPRESSED.
Yes, it's FUCKING DEPRESSED. At 6 months pp I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel-- I remember it starting to lift around 9 months pp with my oldest.
Delete(I've been checking them religiously. At my follow up appointment for the insertion the NP made a comment about how I was "brave" for relying only on the IUD for baby-prevention purposes. That has put the fear of Baby into me.)
(Also, that NP was a piece of work. She criticized my vagina, asked if my husband complained (!), and told me that my body part would never be "great" again.)
Some people! It's too bad you need to be related to such selfishness and can't just stop talking to her. At least you have one lovely sister :)
ReplyDeleteI imagine there are other things going on, but don't let one narcissistic individual drive you to depression. She isn't worth it.
Also! Go look up the Narciscissim disorder, and ways to deal with narcissistic family members. It helped me a lot with father-in-law issues.
DeleteAlso! Clicking on the FD link, I suspect I am a chipper, frisky woman who has not experienced one moment of actual unhappiness. Um... It takes all kinds? There was that time I was sobbing watching LOTR, the battle of Helm's Deep, cradling infant C1 and telling Patrick he was a monster for not crying when the boys were taken from their mothers to fight. It still brings tears to my eyes.
DeleteI hope you don't spiral into Fucking Depressed. Perhaps I'll discover some bogus essential oil treatment for this too. If so, I'll be sure to pass it along.
But this IS the one remaining lovely sister! I won't have any left! Waaaaaaah.
DeleteNoooooo! I did miss the "youngest sister" descriptor. Well, @&$^{#~<€¥¥¥¥¥!
DeleteP.S. I am glad that you are chipper frisky person. If everyone were like me, we'd all be drinking in closets at 10 AM and who would cook dinner? (I am not drinking in closets at any hour of the day, don't worry.)
DeleteI'm sure there's an essential oil for Fucking Depressed. People here keep suggesting I consult the Chinese herbalist who CURED! someone else's PPD. News flash: HELL NO.
What is it you say? Oh, God, the SOUTH.
DeleteNo, no, it's all in caps. OH GOD THE SOUTH.
DeleteNOOOO, NOT THE FD! Beat it off! With your sister's femur, if necessary. I'm so sorry. I imagine feeling totally helpless, because what can you do beyond expressing your misgivings. I hope something happens to change her mind. And if not, I hope your relationship doesn't suffer too much.
ReplyDeleteI thank you for the sentiments, but I am not sangine about any of the above. Also in a month school ends and I get two kids trying to kill each other while I nurse! Seriously, yesterday bug held tatoe down, drew blood in three places, and bit him on the arm. The kid is literally half his size. Can I lock the big one in his room all summer????
DeleteThank you for letting me know about FUCKING DEPRESSED. A great bit of a writing, and a perfect term. Hope you manage to back away from FD. Hope Bug and Tatoe don't kill, maim or scar each other. Hope you don't kill, maim or scar either of them. And no, probably not ALL summer, but maybe every now and then? In a gently and loving way, obviously.
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