It's amazing how little time severe, chronic pain takes to send me into a spiral of fear, depression, and anger. (About three days, in case you were wondering.) I won't bore you with an encore recitation of why and how, but there's some serious conditioned response going on here.
Tomorrow I see the midwives (again). I predict they will a) test me for pre-eclampsia, which will be negative; b) express puzzlement about Weird Headache Shit; and c) suggest a Neti Pot. At which point I may start throwing things and screaming. On the bright side, I took half a long-expired vi.codin and did not break out in hives all over! (I'm also not sure it helped.)
You may also recall that the main reason I didn't want to ever be pregnant again was the two years of illness, pain, and chronic headache. I seriously can't do this for nine more weeks.
Oh no, I know from close second hand how chronic pain stuff goes.
ReplyDeleteHere is a different type of suggestion for you, have you ever tried mindfulness practice. Sounds a bit hokey but is backed up by actual science for dealing with chronic pain among other things.
To get a quick start - this book http://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/B005NJ2T1G?pc_redir=1414662229&robot_redir=1
Or the headspace app on iphone.
ReplyDeleteFwiw this catastrophic spiral is common in chronic pain. Little comfort I'm sure but it's not just you