Sad. Maybe lonely. Also out of processing cycles due to scheduling and arranging and managing and making sure there's something for dinner every night. Having a cold all the time both makes me feel depressed - I think it's some combination of not sleeping as well, being in pain, and echoes of fear surrounding being in pain.
Many ergs of mental energy are being used on real estate at the moment. There are both too many choices, and not enough uncomplicated choices.
Right now, my spouse is much occupied with other things. Marriage is a partnership, and heaven knows I have been on the other side of the neediness seesaw (see also: those two years of being sick, pregnant, sick of being pregnant, or pregnant and sick). Still: something to be endured.
Hope things get better soon!
ReplyDeleteThank you. It comes and goes (the degree of Cranky Children has something to do with it too).
Delete:( I hope everything is better and easier soon.
ReplyDeleteIf only it would warm up! It's been an uncommonly snowy, cold winter in the South, and the South is very much Not Equipped For Winter.
DeleteI sure don't blame you for feeling a little blue. There's a lot going on, and has been for a very long time. I will quietly resent your spouse while also understanding the realities of life...
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