Every day, I see something else awful that people are up in arms about. And, make no mistake, I know that these are worthy, important, pressing causes, whether they're Black Lives Matter, or gun control, or wildfires, or pollution, or ordinary racism.
And yet, I barely have the time to keep everyone here fed and with enough clean clothes for the next day. I have just enough energy to, most days, manage some kindness to my children. There is nothing left over for the rest of the world.
Some day, some day, they will be older and I will have something, anything, to give. Not now. Not today.
Yep, I hear ya. It's ok to take care of the important things at home, and let the rest of the world take care of itself for a while. Someday you won't have small children!
ReplyDeleteYesterday found me in the garden hating myself because the squash is infested with powdery mildew and whiteflies and the green beans are out of hand again and the cucumbers got too old to eat without me noticing and I was like why can't I keep on top of this I SUCK. Oh, right, I'm quite pregnant and have two toddlers and a full time job. It's okay. So, I admire you for even sparing a thought for issues that deserve outrage.
ReplyDeletePlus, outrage is pointless without action. And I have no doubt that when the kids are older you will take action, because you're a compassionate, thoughtful, good person.
My summer squash also has croaked due to powdery mildew, and I'm afraid to look at the green beans (can I pretend I want to save seeds?). My cucumbers died a long time ago due to neglect. I am not pregnant, my children are school-age, and I don't work. What can I say, I'm better with fruit... So, you should feel super awesome about yourself for even getting the garden planted and producing food! Way to go :)
DeleteMy squash ALSO died of neglect/mildew! It is not a good year for squash. I want my solitary loofah to survive. And then I want my dad to help me build raised beds. It's not like his JOB or anything might interfere..
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