Five Minute Blogging

 ... literally five minutes, I have to teach shortly.

This semester has been full of ups and downs.  Student complaints!  (Too female, to liberal, too HARD.)  A wide variety of support offered and not offered, both to me and by me!  Some great students!  Some terrible students!  

A lot of job applications. Being rejected repeatedly is depressing; I try to tell myself it's a growth opportunity.

Finally an appointment with the neurologist for the Good Migraine Drugs.  Fingers crossed that they work.  I've had a headache 25 days out of 30 for the last 4 years.  I have enjoyed it not at all.  I take five medications daily to take it down to 'a normal person would take medication for this' from 'I must lay in the dark wishing for death'.  

The lack of, shall we say, professional support is very undermining.  It has me questioning if I am, in fact, any good at this (I am), or if my efforts are adequate (yes).  It turns out that being chastised for things you didn't do wrong does not lead to job satisfaction.

The children are mostly getting by; Eldest Child is having a bar mitzvah soon.  From my end, it's one more thing to juggle the details of, and I'm reaching capacity on how many things I can keep up in the air at one time.  On the bright side, most of the Things will be over at the end of May.  

I'm sad and angry about a variety of things, and I need to schedule some time to let myself feel that way. Unfortunately, I don't have any time in which to do so.  Feelings!  Why!